Your parents didn’t want you? You would not be here if God didn’t have a plan for you. You came into being through rape? If God didn’t have a plan for you, you would not be here. You are just a coincidence? No, you are not a coincidence. There are no coincidences with God. You are here because God wants you here right now. He has a plan for you.
“When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.” (Psalm 27:10; KJV)
God wanted you in this world right at this moment in time. Otherwise, you would not be here. And only when God calls you home to Himself is the end of your life here on earth. Not before then. God will never ask you to commit suicide! Thoughts of suicide always come from demons and devils who hate you and want to destroy you.
So don’t give up hope. God loves you and doesn’t want you to hurt yourself. He is your loving heavenly Father who gladly takes care of you; and He will restore all that you lost – and so much more.